Earlier today I received a phone call from my mother. Her brother Ron had called her to let her know it won't be long before my grandmother passes. As of right now she is holding on, although I am at peace that she lets go and is at peace. My grandmother turned 98 in November and she lived a full life. I have so many memories of her and would consider her such a good friend. Brian and I talked later in the day and we thought about how we spent every holiday with her and our Aunt Tootie. We laugh about it now but cherish every moment we were talking about. My grandmother in her current state isn't the grandmother we knew growing up. We appreciate her now more than ever.
As children we had her to ourselves. My Uncles were not in her life and her grandchildren from my uncles didn't find a place for her either. So Brian and I were blessed with spending the majority of our holidays with her. As young children we recall the countless presents under our tree when Christmas came around. Besides my mother making Christmas extra special she was the next best thing. I was spoiled the most. I spent weekends with her and dreaded heading back home on Sundays. She taught me how to play rummy and Yahtzee was her favorite. Kylie is getting Yahtzee for Christmas because it would have been something my grandmother would have gave her. As Brian and I got older we would always get a box of lifesaver's story book with money inside. Brian is getting a box from me this year and it was before I knew we would be losing her soon.
I am finding myself rambling and crying today. I am crying because I will miss her, miss the grandma I loved dearly and will always love. Miss the Grandmother I grew up with and pray for peace for her. Thanks Brian for calling and talking and letting me cry and listen to me. Thanks for allowing me not to feel guilty and for honoring her they way you did. We all will honor her this week as we get together and think of her. Grandma it is okay to go ..we will always have you in our heart. Love you more than you will ever know. ......Lisa
1 comment:
Lisa,
I'm sorry for your loss. My grandma taught me how to play rummy, too. It will always be a favorite memory staying overnight at Grandma's staying up late to play rummy, drink hot tea, and eat cookies. Mario's family are gamers too - the old fashioned kind, not video games. We played Phase 10 over the holidays. Lexys thought it was like Yahtzee. How wonderful for you to pass her love of games on to Kylie. May she always live on in your hearts and memories.
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